Half-Life: Alyx. Seeing those hands as my own in a way that my real hands had not been my own for a long time.

Then I also noticed that her 2D:4D finger ratio is close to 1 and that mine is a classic transfem ratio (nowhere near universal, but fun to think about!).

Anyway, HL:A led me to trying avatars with more than just hands and I found that experience extremely comfortable and immersive. It was weird how my brain would accept the avatar as being ”me”, while it would not do that with my own body at the time.

Anyway, VR is pretty cool, you could learn a lot about yourself. I always knew though that I wanted to be a woman, but I thought it would feel weird or something, and I didn’t realise just how bad my situation was. I’m so much happier now.

Gender dysphoria is actually life threatening, though. Kinda hard to explain, but please have some empathy for us, it’s incredibly difficult to be forced to life someone else’s life. Nothing is your own.

Yes. True. Hehe. :)

I just don’t understand time.

I’ve recently started using a timer to measure my progress with a recurring 15-minute task and it legit skips 5 minutes every now and then, when I’m not looking.

Another weird thing is with a different recurring task which I’ve measured. I use the stopwatch for the first part and a countdown timer for the second part. It takes in total an hour according to the measurement, but the wall clock says it takes three hours.

Obviously it’s my perception of time that is messed up. But somehow it affects my use of stopwatches and timers as well. I don’t get it.

This will directly result in deaths, as it already has in other countries that did the same.

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I agree with you. But even worse, the perceived social benefits of being beautiful aren’t really what you’d expect when you’re actually living it.

That’s how I excel at work, honestly. One of the few ways I can motivate myself is if I have someone I’m beating in a contest that only I know about.

Are you kidding me, this is also an adhd thing?? I have so many gadgets and doodads at home. I repeat this comic all the time even though I know it will turn out this way.

My parents have something alright, but I don’t think I’ll ever find out what it is.

Must’ve been one of the early Space Quest games. It’s been a while.

That sucks, RLE tests are real life torture. :/

Have you considered Imago? Way cheaper than GGP.

It would be $20,000 if you get it done in Thailand. Not everyone can get it covered by insurance.

Said as a joke I suppose. However:

Shortly after its release, PGP encryption found its way outside the United States, and in February 1993 Zimmermann became the formal target of a criminal investigation by the US Government for “munitions export without a license”.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pretty_Good_Privacy

No, no… they won and can stop their campaigns of lies now. Congrats on winning.

Season 1 was very meaningful to me, looking forward to the second season!

I never saw the point in storing my private files on someone else’s computer. Seemed like a scam, the type Facebook is.

Certainly is working as intended, as a means to torture us. But I think it’s also intended to have an appearance of being fair, and that part is breaking down. It’s designed for a time when trans people were not allowed to talk with other trans people. Now it turns out that there are several orders of magnitude more of us than were able to get through the gatekeeping in the old days. No gatekeeping system can scale up to the level needed to give all trans people the care they need.

Informed consent is the only humane way forward and the current breakdown of the system makes this the right time to finally demand change.

Rant: I legit had a psychologist ask me why I came out ”so late”. When I was a teenager our country had about a dozen people being allowed to transition per year. A dozen and she wondered why I wasn’t one of them. That’s when gatekeeping was ”working”. It’s a miracle I’m alive after all these years. There were several rules in place to prohibit someone like me from transititioning back then, but I’m like most trans people I meet these days. It’s highly unlikely that you, the one reading this, would have been allowed through.

Maybe gatekeeping doesn’t work.