Which game cracked you?
I did not finish cyberpunk. But what could possibly crack you in there? I played until that desert main story mission.
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We don’t know if it was a single game, or even a single type of media.
However, it may have started with The Longest Journey.
Edit: Though we did a lot of our testing of things such as polyamory, gender etc in Second Life. So that probably contributed a whole lot, even though it’s not technically a game, but a virtual world.
Half-Life: Alyx. Seeing those hands as my own in a way that my real hands had not been my own for a long time.
Then I also noticed that her 2D:4D finger ratio is close to 1 and that mine is a classic transfem ratio (nowhere near universal, but fun to think about!).
Anyway, HL:A led me to trying avatars with more than just hands and I found that experience extremely comfortable and immersive. It was weird how my brain would accept the avatar as being ”me”, while it would not do that with my own body at the time.
Anyway, VR is pretty cool, you could learn a lot about yourself. I always knew though that I wanted to be a woman, but I thought it would feel weird or something, and I didn’t realise just how bad my situation was. I’m so much happier now.
That’s so sweet! I wish I had the money for VR
I’m a cis man so I’m curious what point in the story you resonated with. I’m was able to recognize the allegories in something like The Matrix, but didn’t pick up on that in any particular mission, unless I’m just forgetting a major one or it was a side quest I didn’t come across.
There are some in elements that lend itself to transfem introspection. Johnny is misogynistic, both towards female V and other women in the narrative. In flashback sequences he often has openly misogynistic responses, so the knowledge that he’s slowly taking over your mind is kinda disturbing.
However, it’s not really that the narrative is trans, it’s that you’re playing as a woman who is voice acted. It wasn’t even Cyberpunk that did it for me, but Fallout 4 of all games. Having an actress say the voice lines was different than having a silent protagonist who is rarely treated differently because of her gender.
That said, I still prefer my protagonists to not be voiced.
