Don’t threaten me with a good time.
But really though, I’m not even sure that any of my big issues even have anything to do with any actual mistakes I made. It’s hard to argue with genetics and the medical system’s ineptitude.
🫂
Medical shit suck ass
But that’s the point?
Win-win.
Let that new thing have a go at life.
That’s a risk I’m willing to take.
Ouch so I am a mistake?
If only.
You are a bunch of mistakes in a trenchcoat.
At least according to the quote.
Sorry, I don’t mean to sound like I trying to “one-up” you, but I just wanna share, my existence is an actual mistake. I was born under China’s “One Child Policy”, but I was the 2nd child. An actual oversight of the government’s enforcement. I mean I’m glad to exist, but really, I wasn’t supposed to. Its why I have mini-existential crisis all the time.
What I’m saying is: I get it. I know what it is to feel like being a mistake.
I’ve made a lot of personal-choice mistakes too.
But, the common saying goes: “It’s not a mistake, it’s a happy little accident”
🤗 (internet hug?)
Sorry, I was making a joke. A lot of people weren’t planned but I’d rather call that providence. And I could go on a rant agaist that horrid policy and the ccp in general but I am sure you know better than most of their crimes against humanity.
It’s not so much what I did, but what I didn’t do.
Picard, contemplating about tapestry
This is accidentally a very Buddhist take - the sense of a separate self is illusory and based on karmic impressions, i.e. trauma, and the mistakes that living in our trauma patterns keep perpetuating, i.e. samsara.
What if the mistake was not being myself?
It makes more sense in response to our (allegedly) meritocratic overlords who insist:
- I don’t take personal responsibility
- I have a preponderant sense of entitlement
- I do not respect my betters
- I do not bootstrap myself
- I do not carry my own administrative burden
I’d happy to retroactively cease existing so that I am not judged.
For that I think we’d need to erase my parents mistakes.
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